I Am Back God

I have been busy. But who hasn't been??

Why is it that when I am busy, I tend to forget about God? I just can't seem to find time for Him. There is always something that seems to be just a little more important.

I am ashamed.

After a wonderful evening with a very dear and special friend, my priorities have shifted. I am so thankful for the Godly women in my life that constantly and lovingly and without even knowing bring me back to where I should be and to where I want to be.

I am back God.

Is it my life to live ... or His?

I let worry and stress consume me. What I too often forget is that these are all sins. Why am I so quick to forget God? These sins imply that I don't fully trust that God is BIG enough, POWERFUL enough, or LOVING enough to take care of what is happening in my life.

I have thoroughly enjoyed taking some much-needed time to read an awesome book that is helping me grow in my relationship with God. In doing so, I was recently reminded that this is not my life to live! I don't think I have ever really stopped and taken that in fully until now. This is HIS life. I am here, able to enjoy so many pure moments -- Godly moments with my children, amazing sunsets, answered prayers, a life of love and happiness here on earth -- only because GOD has given me this life to live. And when I let these sins -- worry, stress, negativity, discontentment, anger, fear -- consume me, I am not living my life the way HE wants me to.

Ephesians 2:8 says, "For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith -- and this not from yourselves, it is a gift from God..."

By letting these sins consume me, as I too often do, I am not shining for Him, and glorifying Him in the way that I am living my life. I am not to live the life that I want. This is not the life He wants for me.

1 Corinthians 10:31 says, "So whether you eat or drink or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God."

That is what my life should be. It should be about Him. Not my stress, not my worries, not my fears.

Although it is extremely hard at times, I realize that as long as I put my trust in God and make my life His, then I have no need for these things that are bringing me down because I know that God loves me so very much, more than I love my very own children, and He will take care of me, protect me, and guide me down His path to life Eternal -- a life where there is no pain, no fear, no worries, no sadness, no sickness.

I can let go and just be happy.

"I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me."

Galatians 2:20

I want Jesus

I want Jesus. I want more of Him. I want to surrender myself totally and completely to God's purposes. I know that only He will bring me the most pleasure and satisfaction in this life here on Earth and in Heaven.

I don't want to be a "lukewarm" Christian. God doesn't want me some of the time ... halfhearted. He doesn't want me on Sunday mornings, and when I am going through a hard or stressful time. He wants ALL of me.

But how do I get there? In all reality, as a mom of 2 young children, I am finding it a struggle to find the time and passion I need to really grow in His word and truly shine for Him. My desire is present, but I am struggling.

How do you do it?

God is able to do immeasurably more than all we could ask or imagine.

Ephesians 3:20